What is the use of spending almost two thousand dollars on facial for a whole year when the reaction I get from other facial centres is 'you just did facial last week'?
It's depressing, dejecting, dispiriting, discouraging, disheartening, discomposing, melancholic, miserable, tear-jerking, upsetting and what more do I need to say for you to get how I feel?
LIKE IT WAS AN UTTER WASTE OF MONEY!! I could have spent it on another LV wallet and got something back in return. I could have spent it on medication and seen faster results. I could have saved the money for my future!!!
But then would I do otherwise? I don't know. Beauty comes at a price, no?
Yesterday, I went to check out yet another facial centre. The plan I've signed on to at my current facial centre is finishing in about 1 month's time. (Yes, I signed on to it last April so you do the math and work out if it has even been a year!) So I was sourcing for other alternatives since it's far too expensive for me to afford another year at this place.
As the lady working at this facial centre explained the types of facials available to me, and introduced a trial facial for $38 (original facial price is $280 per facial!!!), I agreed and said I wouldn't book for a slot this weekend as I had just done facial on Sunday.
She turned and looked at me, staring closer to my face as if she was shocked. She commented that it didn't look like I had done facial just a couple of days ago and asked me about my breakouts and so on and so forth, as if asking me why I was still going to this facial centre.
I felt utterly horrid. My skin is flawed, I admit to that. I have zits on my cheeks, above my upper lip, at the side of my mouth, on my chin, and on my forehead (that practically covers my whole face). If you'd ask me to count, I'd say right now I have about 10 visible zits living on my face. I have scars from my previous breakouts, red and blotchy, which never seem to heal or lighten dispite the many treatments I've gone to which claimed to lighten scars.
But the facial centre I currently go to is reputable. Their services and equipments are professional and they have outlets in major malls. They wouldn't be entirely useless, I try to convince myself.
The above isn't the only example. I went to another centre to try out their services and my face had so much clogs that the specialist was compelled to ask what my current facial centre was doing? Were they even extracting these deep clogs? When I confronted my current facial specialist, she said there are some you cannot extract because it is so deep. They do not want to cause further scaring. It takes time to clear the face of impurities.
But it's hard to stay positive when you receive these comments like people don't believe you had just been to facial a couple of days ago. What does this tell about my facial treatments? It's lousy or your face is beyond hope.
I don't know which is better. I've spent so much money on my face this last year, I hardly want to admit that it was all for nothing. I want to know that if I hadn't gone for any treatment, my face would have been worse off. I want to know that the facials I've paid hundreds for each time was worth it. At least I had some results. But I'll never know, and I'm scared to find out which is true. Is it true that my face would have been worse if I didn't do facial? (I can stop facial and find out in a couple of month's time - and if it is true, I'll have to start treatment all over again to get it back to what it was before.) If it is not true and my face remains what it is today? (I've spent about two thousand dollars this year, just fixing my face, and you tell me that it's just that and I can't do anything about these breakouts? That what about all the other facial specialists who tell their customers that they must clear their skin of clogs - is that all a lie?)
I don't know what to do right now. So many ladies go for facial, that must say something about facial being good for your skin. But I'm frustrated with my face. I'm so frustrated with the money I've spent, just to receive such comments in return. With one comment, my hopes, my optimism, my aspirations that one day I may have clear skin - all that came crashing down.
How can a person be confident if she's so frustrated with her complexion? Make-up only does what is short-term - for that couple of hours. Make-up may be magical for the hours it's on, it may transform a plain jane into a super model, but once make-up is removed, all your flaws are revealed once again, and it could even be worse. It's a vicious cycle which I'm sure I've mentioned before. A person uses make-up to conseal the zits, more zits breakout because of the clogged pores, and more make-up goes on in order to cover the additional zits. I call this the beautiful zits lifecycle.
So how can one achieve confidence in her appearance? The answer lies in the money.
With money, you can go for weekly facials and gold treatments.
With money, you can go for lazer - the quick option to get rid of zits.
With money, you can hire a specialist to take care of your dietary needs.
With money, you don't need to work, you can attempt to sleep early almost every night.
With money, I wouldn't be writing this entry about the money I've wasted for this past 1 year and the depressing results I've achieved from it.
